How I got into tiling
(from recording #92 of "Money is Love" book material)

(35:04) See, when I first got into tiling, I had no idea that I would enjoy it. What happened was that I stopped doing the lottery part. You know, making money off the lottery – I just shut that down. I didn’t feel like it any more, just wasn’t sitting right with me and also a lot of resistance was coming up and I couldn’t find myself pushing past the resistance I was having.

Now, I didn’t understand the resistance either. The resistance wasn’t the winning part, which I thought it was, the resistance was actually the money. I had resistance for “easy money”, I thought that was a bad thing.

So I didn’t know what to do. So at that time, again, I envisioned myself having income and doing something. You know, it’s just I like working with my hands – so something in that range. I just envisioned myself just doing something. Now, when I say doing something, I just envision myself… How can I say “doing something” without actually doing anything, really? Just very lightly I’m doing something, and I’m enjoying it. In other words there is income coming in, I’m really happy.

And so one day it all clicked, just like in an unimaginable way it came together – bang! like that – and I was in a tile business. And you know what? It matched me perfectly, I got a knack for it! I mean, I would have never known that, but the Universe knows that. See, there is a larger part to ourselves. We are not just what we see here, we are much bigger, and so that larger part of myself knows more about me than I do and said “Oh, he wants to create something happy, where he is doing something. We know exactly what will work really well for him.”

And so they brought the coincidences together, because I opened the door for it. I flowed that Love Energy to Source, whatever you wanna call it, I opened the valve, I pretended till I got really good a feeling, that opens the valve, I hold that good feeling, and then the Universe set up the coincidences – the people, the events, the timing – everything needed to fall into place – to jobs for me. Perfect! I got the perfect jobs, because I also had to learn it – I got the perfect jobs to learn it. In perfect sequence. It all came about as naturally, as breathing – unbelievable! I’m still amazed by it today!

But today I’m again deciding what now? Should I keep going? I don’t wanna do it the rest of my life. Sure, I could do that for another 20 years, and would enjoy it, but I think I’m looking for more now. It was an adventure, the creating part of it was adventure, the unfolding of it was an adventure, the growing in it was an adventure, creating it into a really good money making business was an adventure. So the whole thing was a beautiful story, like a flower that grew up from a plant, grew leaves and then blossomed. Now, I could continue on till it turns into a giant rose-bush with hundreds of blossoms, and from there to a garden with hundreds of rose-bushes, whatever.

But I feel, like I’m looking for a new adventure, new growth, but I don’t know what it is, I don’t know exactly what would fit me now, I’m not sure. Do I wanna be a writer? Well, I suppose, I could, maybe. Do I just wanna sit on my ass and play around, and just watch the sunsets? Oh, maybe. Maybe that will become too boring for me, I’m always doing something. Frankly, I think, it’ll probably would be a little bit too boring.

For 3 months now I’ve been off, but I’ve been working on a boat, plus I’ve been doing these recording, which is a lot of work – it takes time, I have to find a quiet place to think about, write it, bring it out, bring out the openness – I have to open myself up so that what I really feel and really think comes out – it’s a lot of work, takes a lot of time and a lot of energy. So I’ve been fairly busy. In between there I’ve been playing my games a little bit. Like I said I work on the boat, there’s been some painting… Roberta was sick and so forth.

So it’s been quite and summer, quite a busy summer! Now I’m ready to do something – I’m not sure what, but I’d like to have money coming in from it in a nice, good, handsome flow. Like a real bunch of it – not just a little bit more of what I need, but a bunch! I think I have some things that I would like to experience, like maybe an antique car, and we are thinking we would like a house. You know, we are living in our boat right now – would like to buy a house again and keep the boat. So…

And I need something to do. I can’t just sit around. Well, I could, but I wanna be really happy, so what have we done? – We’ve brought about the 3.6 million and thought about it in a way that brought great enormous joy. I tell yah, I never felt this good! Even though I get my down moments, I have never felt so good in my life – ever! I’ve been feeling fantastic, I’m so, so happy that I’ve done this!

And a lot of this has come from the release of the resistance. I feel a lot of the resistance I had from money has been released. Probably, there’s still some, I think there is still some, but so much of it has been released! And I like the stretching to something new, the stretching to something so big as the 3.6 million. It’s just been a lot of fun, and how it all unfolds? Well, that’s gonna be even more fun! And joy of it.